I Want To Be Ready For Life.

 Sometimes I am impulsive.  Like 2 weeks ago I drove a golf cart around the golfing park because it looked fun and I was bored.  I had permission from some worker dude but I shouldn’t have driven the golf cart because I wasn’t a member of the golf club.  I need to have more self control.  I want to be part of the small group of people that can control themselves from the gratification of fun.
I am an adult and I need to act like it.  I am legally responsible for my actions.  Like I can’t be getting into as much trouble on the streets now or I could go to prison…not that I would want to get into trouble or anything.  ^_^   I

I see neighbors spending their time on worthless pursuits.  I see on the news crime that goes on. Right now there are horrible things that are going on.  People act like maniacs.  Around St Louis there are people taking advantage of the confusion in Ferguson to rob and hurt others. 

The moral decline of America is evident. If we have wars or violence in our country it could be like the French Revolution.  Things are going to get scary.  Recently I kind of changed how I thought about fighting and dying or giving your life without killing back.  There has to be a balance but it’s good to have your own convictions about it.

 I was reading a little about severe slavery in the south in a book called Visit's to America.  I read about a lady named Madame Lalaurie.  She would beat her slave’s first thing in the morning with a blood clotted cowhide.  Her slave was chained to the oven with only 8 feet of rope attached to it.  The other 7 were starving and their bones were sticking out.  They had colors around their necks so they couldn’t turn their heads. 

I thought about if persecution did and decided how I would deal with it and I prayed that God would prepare me for what he was preparing me for.  What if violent mobs started raging against Christians?   I always had a selfish thought in the back of my mind that when trouble started coming we would go out and live on our privet property and maybe fight for our rights if someone came to get us.  But I remembered the verse. 

Whoever wishes to save his life will lose it and whoever wishes to lose his life will save it.   

 So I decided that if persecution came I would keep sharing the truth and give my life to make a difference.  While I was thinking about the horror of slavery and that Christians still have as gross sins as slavery in their families.  And they go on and act like everything is okay.  Adulatory is as bad as murder and it’s everywhere.   Today there is as much slavery and persecution going on in the world while we sit here and enjoy luxury and even complain about our lives.

I used to more of the Patrick Henry type.  If persecuting people group like Muslims came or tyrants took over I’d just kill as many as I could.  Now if I was by myself I would share the gospel and hold up my bible but I would I would be slow to shot back.  I would fight back to defend my siblings or others younger than me if their lives were in danger.  I want to be ready and prepared to suffer for the sake of Christ.

It’s not the violence of few that scary it’s the silence of me. God says to get of your fat backs and pray.  “He who will humble themselves and call on me and seek his face he will listen to them.  He will give them peace and strength.”

God says that woman (and men) should be wise, sensible, level headed, strong, fearless, discreet, speaking wisdom not silly or idle.  That is what I want to be.